Sometimes I get so caught up in what I perceive is the "correct" thing to do that I lose sight of the bigger picture.
Last week I decided I needed a new job. This decision came after a co-worker became hysterical (screaming and throwing things) while I was trying to relate work-related information to them. Which cause several co-workers to berate me for setting off this person. Which caused an entire responsibility to be stripped away from me. Which caused another co-worker to yell at me because this responsibility was moved onto them. All of this happened before I had even gotten lunch.
However... Ultimately, it was a good thing because finally I stepped back from my daily grind and took a good hard look at my job: I hadn't worked less than an 8-hour day since in the past 18 weeks Instead I have been working closer to 10-12 hours a day without a full lunch break. Anytime I have a day off (for events I had scheduled prior to starting and received time off approvals for) I get called, texted or emailed from work. My salary is 25% LESS than the LOW end of the industry standard salary for my position. I am working on the company's LARGEST account which had previously been the sole responsibility of one person PLUS all of the other accounts for the company. But the worst of all: I am living 2.5 hours away from my partner & cats in a rented room and only able to be truly home on the weekends.
After a day of getting yelled at after an extremely tough week I finally woke up from the 5-month long haze I had been in... I realized that there was no good reason to stay at a job that causes me high amounts of stress, and doesn't even come close to financially compensating me for the work I put in. Just because it looks better on a resume to stay at a company for at least a year was not enough for me anymore. And it took a solid kick in the stomach to see that.
Today I accepted an offer from a company that is only 20mins away from MY apartment(+Partner & Cats), pays me what my level of experience is actually worth, and requires only approximately 30 hours a week, most of which I can do via telecommuting. It's freelance, but after working freelance all through my college education, I think I am more suited towards that. I work most efficiently when I can work on MY terms. I am not an office person who adheres to normal work hours. I don't need someone to lean over me to make sure I work. I work crazy late into the night and sleep in until noon. I like to go to cons, mingle, sell art, and travel.
Ultimately I had put SO many things in my life on hold to try and do the "correct" thing after graduating, ie getting a 9-5 job in field related to my studies, but doesn't suit me. The "Correct" thing to do is not always the right thing for me an individual. And it took a harsh wake-up call to see that.
I do have to extend an apology to everyone out there who has been waiting for something from me... Art, sewing, etc. I had many projects I had taken on before starting this job... Before I realized I'd be spending over 15 hours of my week traveling, and working 10-12 hours a day. I hadn't prepared myself for the level of exhaustion I'd feel from working at such a stressful company. I thought I could somehow balance everything and make it all work. I hadn't even the slightest clue what a toll my job was taking on me until I felt the extreme relief at accepting the new job offer. All I can say is that I am so sorry for all of the things I have had on hold... and that I am grateful that people have been so patient and understanding.
I still have 2 weeks left of the crazy life... But with the bright shining light ahead that soon I will have a life, MY LIFE, back.